I have become a beggar

I have become a beggar..

Begging for your love

While I’m stranded in this land

Unaware of my home back home

I have become a beggar

Begging for your attention

While I’m choosing my words wisely

So that it doesn’t steal your time from me

I have become a beggar

Begging for your touch

While I’m hoping to the least

That you’d atleast come for my flesh

I have become a beggar

Begging for your care

While my head spins around

At the sight of your angry face

I have become a beggar

Begging for your kindness

While you want to hear none

of my tumultuous turmoils inside

I have become a beggar

Begging for your happiness

While I rot in the dungeons of solitude and sorrow

I have become a beggar

Begging for your friendship

While you want nothing from me

I have become a beggar

Begging for your cure

While my malady is slowly slithering in and spreading it’s venom

I have become a beggar

Begging for your time

While I know deep down

I haven’t much left..

And as I vanish

One fine day

I know you’d give me all the love in the world

If only it could bring me back to life

You’d give me all the time in the world,

If only it could add a second to mine..

You’d say you’ll save me from all the heartbreaks,

If only it could heal a single wound you caused..

You’d wish you hugged me one more time,

If only my body didn’t dust underneath..

You’d pray for me day and night,

If only it could enlighten my grave..

And when the grief is done and dealt with,

You’d move on

And I slowly begin to fade beneath your memories crust..

Like seasons I might come and go

But then,

Barren earth will bear new fruits

Darkest chambers will shred their light

Dusty desserts will behold new oases

Drooping roots will bloom their flowers

And there will not be a single trace

Of my love for you.

Hiraeth