I’m such a boring person to be around.
I don’t think anyone likes to be with me.
I don’t know how to have fun.
The voices in my head kept echoing to me and tried convincing me of the mere possibility of people swirling in and out of my life as and when they choose. It is hard to have a best friend, I realised the bitterness as I typed in some of what was going on with me today. But do I really need a friend? Well, that was questionable. As I was busying myself with my routine spring cleaning, decluttering unused items and binning expired medicines and pantry, a small voice softly but clearly told me; you don’t need anyone now, except Allah swt. And it’s because you have not had an open conversation with Him yet ever since you woke up, you are feeling this way. That you are worth nothing. Alhamdulillah you have a beautiful heart and that’s all you need, to be friends with your Creator. You don’t have to keep chasing people. And when you are actually in need of a friend, He will bring the right ones to you; each time a different one. So trust the Process, sit back and enjoy the ride; both alone and together. At all times, remember that Allah swt is always with you. Ya Allah, please help me. I have no one but You and you alone is sufficient for me. Alhamdulillah.
Hiraeth 